Okay, I know, I'm posting yet again within the same week. Get over it. This one's gonna be short anyway. Onto me....
I have grown completely tired and frustrated with life. No....not life. Life is good. It's the people in it that cause distaste in my mouth. The whole world has all but converted to a completely shiny plastic thing in the universe. It's so hard to find someone who is really who they claim to be, and the handful you can find are either ignorant, hateful, or just plain crazy. So finding that tiny little circle of people you can stand to be around and know are real is slowly becoming the most complex process on the planet--even surpassing mating rituals of wild animals.
The thought sickens me, though. To know that almost every person you think is your friend really only associates with you for benefit of some kind, and really doesn't give two shits about your answer to "How's life?"
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
Like, omigod, HI!!!
Recently, I've had an odd occurrence......occur. And it's got me thinkin'. What am I thinking? Well, I am thinking "Why the FUCK would you think that we're friends now that we're out of high school and 'grown up'?". Let me explain.....
When I was in middle school, I had an enemy. An enemy of the over-the-top dramatic, pre-teen kind of fashion. You see, in P.E., I fell on the dirt track because a snotty little girl tripped me. How do I know this? Because, while passing her, she moved closer to me causing my foot to catch on hers. Furthermore, she not once bothered to see if I was okay. Instead, she and her friends laughed. So, I complained to my friend in line at lunch, only to be overheard by a friend of this person. This friend told her what I said, and she felt the need to corner me in the locker room telling me off. Oh joys of middle school that I miss so much....NOT.
Anyway, by the end of middle school, I realized I really didn't give a shit about this person and basically just ignored her through high school. I had an awkward moment after we graduated when I walked into Keva Juice (which is like Jamba Juice.....but better) only to hear her voice behind the counter saying "Nicki Priest! How are you???" (People called me Nicki in middle school....that's a longer, but irrelevant story).
Recently, this person has added me to her Facebook friends. Weird, but whatever. But today, another person added me as well. My connection to this other person is basically nothing. We knew of each other's existence, and we might have even had a class or two together. I don't recall exactly because WE WERE NEVER FRIENDS.
So now I'm confused. This "social networking" thing seems to be violating all laws of logic. Have we really evolved to a point where our thought process goes something like "Hey, I know that person sorta. I mean, we went to school and we never talked, but I know who they are and I'm sure they know who I am, so we should be friends on [insert currently popular social networking site here]!"?
I'm just confused at this phenomenon.....
When I was in middle school, I had an enemy. An enemy of the over-the-top dramatic, pre-teen kind of fashion. You see, in P.E., I fell on the dirt track because a snotty little girl tripped me. How do I know this? Because, while passing her, she moved closer to me causing my foot to catch on hers. Furthermore, she not once bothered to see if I was okay. Instead, she and her friends laughed. So, I complained to my friend in line at lunch, only to be overheard by a friend of this person. This friend told her what I said, and she felt the need to corner me in the locker room telling me off. Oh joys of middle school that I miss so much....NOT.
Anyway, by the end of middle school, I realized I really didn't give a shit about this person and basically just ignored her through high school. I had an awkward moment after we graduated when I walked into Keva Juice (which is like Jamba Juice.....but better) only to hear her voice behind the counter saying "Nicki Priest! How are you???" (People called me Nicki in middle school....that's a longer, but irrelevant story).
Recently, this person has added me to her Facebook friends. Weird, but whatever. But today, another person added me as well. My connection to this other person is basically nothing. We knew of each other's existence, and we might have even had a class or two together. I don't recall exactly because WE WERE NEVER FRIENDS.
So now I'm confused. This "social networking" thing seems to be violating all laws of logic. Have we really evolved to a point where our thought process goes something like "Hey, I know that person sorta. I mean, we went to school and we never talked, but I know who they are and I'm sure they know who I am, so we should be friends on [insert currently popular social networking site here]!"?
I'm just confused at this phenomenon.....
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Grab-bags are the roulette for children.....
So, I'm failing out of school. Seemed better to just outright say it. My defenses: online programs are not as easy as online colleges and school advisers lead you to believe. Here's how I think the conversation went one day:
"....But if they're online, they aren't learning as much!"
"Yes, we have to make sure they learn as much as in a classroom."
"NO. We must make them learn MORE."
"So, the foregoing of classroom activities means.....?"
"MORE WORK! Read 4 books instead of 2!"
"Yes, and write papers on all of those books, then more comparing them to each other!"
"And make them participate in 'discussion boards', where they must write the equivalent of a short paper EVERY WEEK!!"
"Yes! Excellent......"
(*some points make be exaggerated for dramatic purposes)
I admit, though, that it is mostly through my fault alone that I am in this predicament. The heart of the story is this: because I screwed up so early on in my career at NAU, I was placed on academic probation. Basically, that means I MUST earn a 2.0 GPA for each term until my cumulative GPA is 2.0 or higher. Here's the kicker: if I don't earn a 2.0 for the term, I am "academically suspended"--I'm not allowed to return to the university for at least one semester AND before I can return, I must submit a request and be approved for an academic reinstatement. I have to prove to some committee that I am capable of earning and maintaining a 2.0 or higher by providing past or current records of such (basically, my transcript from Pima will work wonders).
At this point, I'm almost looking forward to having a semester off. Though, it will make the following semesters hard as hell to keep up on (full-time online program = crappy). Whatever. I'm so tired of all the bullshit in the world, I just want to disappear to a far off island to live out the rest of my lazy life. *sigh*
But what can I do.......?
Que Será Será
"....But if they're online, they aren't learning as much!"
"Yes, we have to make sure they learn as much as in a classroom."
"NO. We must make them learn MORE."
"So, the foregoing of classroom activities means.....?"
"MORE WORK! Read 4 books instead of 2!"
"Yes, and write papers on all of those books, then more comparing them to each other!"
"And make them participate in 'discussion boards', where they must write the equivalent of a short paper EVERY WEEK!!"
"Yes! Excellent......"
(*some points make be exaggerated for dramatic purposes)
I admit, though, that it is mostly through my fault alone that I am in this predicament. The heart of the story is this: because I screwed up so early on in my career at NAU, I was placed on academic probation. Basically, that means I MUST earn a 2.0 GPA for each term until my cumulative GPA is 2.0 or higher. Here's the kicker: if I don't earn a 2.0 for the term, I am "academically suspended"--I'm not allowed to return to the university for at least one semester AND before I can return, I must submit a request and be approved for an academic reinstatement. I have to prove to some committee that I am capable of earning and maintaining a 2.0 or higher by providing past or current records of such (basically, my transcript from Pima will work wonders).
At this point, I'm almost looking forward to having a semester off. Though, it will make the following semesters hard as hell to keep up on (full-time online program = crappy). Whatever. I'm so tired of all the bullshit in the world, I just want to disappear to a far off island to live out the rest of my lazy life. *sigh*
But what can I do.......?
Que Será Será
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